That's right, my baby is the size of an onion. However, I think it is definitely the cutest onion I have ever seen.
It is also the wiggliest onion! This baby moves a lot. Greg got to feel it for the first time yesterday. I told him it was being awfully active and as soon as he put his hand on my belly it jumped! So then, he jumped and screamed :) We were both so excited.
Having a human being inside of me is amazing. It is magical, it is miraculous, and, it is STRESSFUL!! I am always worried about what I put in my body. Is it healthy enough? Is it too much? Is it enough? Am I getting enough water? Should I really have that fourth Twizzler?
I often wonder if other moms to be stress about every little thing like I do. I wonder if I am just a crazy worry wart.
Sometimes, if I am not sick enough, or my boobs aren't quite as sore as they should be, I wonder if my baby is still okay. There have been absolutely no signs of an unhealthy baby. In fact, baby was 2 days ahead of schedule at our last ultrasound! Yet I have this crazy worrying feeling constantly. I think maybe God gave me the HG to make my mind feel at ease that I was still pregnant.
I have a tattoo on my wrist that says "be still" and under that "psalms 46:10"
This verse has always been my comfort. "Be still and know that I am God". It is the hardest thing to do though! Our selfish minds want to be in control, not hand over control to our maker. I know that I am worthless when I am in control. At this point, what can I do for my child personally to ensure that it stays healthy? I can eat right, drink lots of water, and get a lot of rest. I am doing these things. Beyond this, I have to fully rely on God to help my child grow and stay healthy. I have faith that he will, yet I still struggle with worrying constantly.
My prayer this week is that I can ease my mind. That I can "let go and let God".
Monday, April 30, 2012
Thursday, April 26, 2012
15 Weeks 4 Days
I am in my 16th week of pregnancy. Last night I think my belly pooched out another few inches. I woke up and looked in the mirror, and was amazed at how large my bump has gotten! It looks more like a baby bump now, and I am loving being pregnant!
I am still struggling really bad with the HG, but it is under control as long as I have my miracle medicine. I am in my second trimester, so I was really hoping it would get better, but no such luck. I am not complaining of course, I love this little child inside of me.
We got to have our first real ultrasound on April 3rd. We had an ultrasound previously, but it was just my doctor who did it, and it wasn't as clear as this one. It was amazing. Our baby had hiccups and was kicking like crazy. I cried a lot while staring at that tiny being move. It looked so much less like an alien, and very much like a little human being!
We get to see our baby again on May 15th, and that is when we could find out the sex, but instead we are having a gender reveal party on May 19th with our very close relatives. We are going to have the nurse write down the gender and put it in an envelope, then we will bring the envelope to a bakery and they will bake a cake either blue or pink and frost it so that we can't see the color of the cake. Then, when we cut into the cake we will know if it is a boy or a girl! :) I can't wait! It is so much more personal than finding out in the room with a stranger.
My baby is the size of an avacodo right now(about 4-5 inches). That is crazy to me, it seems so big! I now have an iphone and have a couple pregnancy apps that I look at daily. My favorite one is the what to expect app. It has daily advice and weekly progress of my baby. It is fun to read that my baby can now hear my voice, and it has eyebrows and eyelashes. Today's advice is for the father of the baby- it says "Pregnant not fat, pregnant not fat, pregnant not fat! Keep reminding yourself!" Then it goes on to explain that it probably isn't a good idea to call your pregnant wife fat ;) Good advice! I feel connected to my baby when I can know the progression of it. I feel like I know this baby so much already, and I feel so in love with it. I know it can't understand me, but I do talk to it. Even while hugging the toilet I will tell my baby how worth it this is, and that I am so in love with it! I have felt baby move a few times. It is just little movements it feels like a little butterfly rubbing against the inside of my tummy. I can't wait until Greg can feel it moving. I know that he will love that a lot!
We waited a long time for this pregnancy, I am so thankful that God has given us so much appreciation for what we have and this journey that we get to be on. I am able to appreciate every little part of pregnancy because I have wanted it for so long.
I am still struggling really bad with the HG, but it is under control as long as I have my miracle medicine. I am in my second trimester, so I was really hoping it would get better, but no such luck. I am not complaining of course, I love this little child inside of me.
We got to have our first real ultrasound on April 3rd. We had an ultrasound previously, but it was just my doctor who did it, and it wasn't as clear as this one. It was amazing. Our baby had hiccups and was kicking like crazy. I cried a lot while staring at that tiny being move. It looked so much less like an alien, and very much like a little human being!
We get to see our baby again on May 15th, and that is when we could find out the sex, but instead we are having a gender reveal party on May 19th with our very close relatives. We are going to have the nurse write down the gender and put it in an envelope, then we will bring the envelope to a bakery and they will bake a cake either blue or pink and frost it so that we can't see the color of the cake. Then, when we cut into the cake we will know if it is a boy or a girl! :) I can't wait! It is so much more personal than finding out in the room with a stranger.
My baby is the size of an avacodo right now(about 4-5 inches). That is crazy to me, it seems so big! I now have an iphone and have a couple pregnancy apps that I look at daily. My favorite one is the what to expect app. It has daily advice and weekly progress of my baby. It is fun to read that my baby can now hear my voice, and it has eyebrows and eyelashes. Today's advice is for the father of the baby- it says "Pregnant not fat, pregnant not fat, pregnant not fat! Keep reminding yourself!" Then it goes on to explain that it probably isn't a good idea to call your pregnant wife fat ;) Good advice! I feel connected to my baby when I can know the progression of it. I feel like I know this baby so much already, and I feel so in love with it. I know it can't understand me, but I do talk to it. Even while hugging the toilet I will tell my baby how worth it this is, and that I am so in love with it! I have felt baby move a few times. It is just little movements it feels like a little butterfly rubbing against the inside of my tummy. I can't wait until Greg can feel it moving. I know that he will love that a lot!
We waited a long time for this pregnancy, I am so thankful that God has given us so much appreciation for what we have and this journey that we get to be on. I am able to appreciate every little part of pregnancy because I have wanted it for so long.
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